Too Stressed to Eat

You know what I miss the most about biglaw these days?

Being too stressed to eat.

There would be days when I would completely forget to eat breakfast and lunch.  It would be around 4pm, and I would realize I hadn't eaten anything all day.  I would make a mental note to eat a bigger dinner.  But by the time dinner rolled around (usually 8:30 or 9pm when I was in New York), I had completely lost my appetite.  So I would order my $50 worth of food to be delivered to the office (paid for by the firm, of course), take a few bites, and then retire home for the evening an hour later.

No wonder I was so skinny.


Now, I am not so stressed.  Tired, exhausted, a bit bored?  Yes.  But stressed?  Not in the way I once was.

So I'm no longer so skinny.  Or let me reword that.  I probably would be considered skinny by societal standards, but I have to work at it.  Like really hard. I am forcing myself to do Jillian Michaels DVDs.  And Weight Watchers.   And I am starving and thirsty for soda and all I want is a big Surfside sub from Jetties. 

But nooooooooooooo.  I shall eat a granola bar and an egg salad sandwich on wheat with egg whites only.

The thing is, when you are a stay at home mom there's not a lot to look forward to in the day that is just for you.  Actually, there's hardly anything just for you except a shower and meals.  So I make my meals count.  I want them to be good.  Satisfying.  Something to look forward to.  I no longer forget to eat.  Instead, I count down the minutes until I can!

Take that away, and I am cranky.  And bitter.  And cursing Weight Watchers and all those who swear by it.

Oh, how I miss the days when I didn't think about food.  If only I could be a stay at home mom with a food aversion.  Probably not the healthiest of things, but at least I'd look fabulous in a bathing suit.

But hey, everyone needs a break.  Tonight I am headed to Komi.  If you live in the DC area, you know enough to be jealous.  If not, lets just say that it involves 13 courses, lots of wine, and way too many calories.  But I don't care.  Not one bit.

Is the day over yet????